Adamu Yahuza Abdullahi
Adamu Yahuza Abdullahi, THE PLOB, TPC V, is a poet from Kwara State, Nigeria. He is a Best of the Net Nominee and a second place winner of the first edition of Hassan Sulaiman Gimba Esq Poetry Prize and Bill Ward Poetry Prize for emerging writers '23.
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cheerfulness of half things
god, i am here in your myth with my story;
mine is a paper boat tossed across the
whirlwind. i am everything that slurs
in a twiddle of images, a dimming light
placed on the window & in a dark night.
yester-night, a songbird sings to me about
survival, but not the melancholia it
could randomize into. i bundle myself
into a blanket in search of the joy in
loneliness. joy comes knocking, says my
eeriness crushes rainbows. i open my
mouth to swallow tomorrow. I, too, know
that nothing breaks the heart than a journey
into memory. but how do I undo this trance?
how do i forget the day my brother rejected
his favorite meal to shape-shift into a desert wind?
i want to switch out of this absence—of everything.
i want to play songs without running my fingers
across the sadness in the lyrics. in my room,
there's a forgotten bookshelf of Rumi's poetry,
I want to flip their pages & watch the mischief
of my ruin blush. i want to stand before
a mirror; not cracking, not breaking.
god, when people ask why I write sad poems,
make them fall in love, sleep in its abundance
& wake up clutched in its abyss;
make them feel the cheerfulness of half things.