James Lilliefors
James Lilliefors is a poet, journalist, and novelist, originally from the Washington, D.C. area who now lives in Florida. His writing has appeared in Ploughshares, The Washington Post, The Adirondack Review, Door Is a Jar, Pulsebeat Poetry Journal, The Miami Herald and elsewhere. He is a former writing fellow at the University of Virginia.
A Different Kind of Silence
Her eyes stay with the crushed rabbit
in the road longer than I like,
as if she’s never seen a dead anything before.
And then it occurs to me: maybe she hasn’t.
Within seconds, my thoughts have moved on,
and I assume hers have, too.
Nothing is said.
We’re used to things disappearing.
Weeks later, she is walking with me downtown
when a homeless man grabs my arm.
I ignore him, we keep going. But her eyes
study my face, longer than I like.
Nothing is said.
Everything at her age is a lesson.
I want her to be good: person, friend,
student, citizen.
I told her once that silence can be
a good thing. But this is a different kind
of silence, an absence.
This evening, we sailed paper boats
together into the lake by where we live.
I, too, grew up without explanations,
and understand the lesson
that saying nothing sends.
The damage it can do.
But that’s another thought
I allow to disappear,
knowing the world will
absorb this silence, and
none will be the wiser for it.